Should mental health be considered an absence of mental pain? We have meticulously crafted a society to believe that emotional distress is undesirable and can be managed with a daily swallow. Doctors, therapists, and psychiatrists are writing death notes on their Rx pads. Anyone who knows the science behind it knows that with an over 70% placebo rate, you’re not conducting “science”, you’re lying to people. How much of our suffering comes from our attempts to avoid mental distress, rather than believing we can actually allow and tolerate our difficulties? You’re convincing people they are broken, sick, and chemically imbalanced. You’re medicating toddlers, young adults, and parents. When you convince a teenager that this pill will level out her emotions, she will go her whole life thinking she is sick. You damage the biochemistry of brains that are still developing. And god forbid she grows up to go to nursing school and gets a degree in psychology, because she will know the placebo rate and know the biochemistry behind herself and that pill. She might ultimately decide to stop taking medications, because she wants to live how she was truly meant to and begin to tolerate the difficult experiences. And then, the past 10+ years of mental biochemical warfare truly unleashes through her soul.
“I feel like my brain is broken”, is what she will say during her final days.
The world without Jen…just doesn’t seem logical. I lost one of my Fabulous Five. She had a genuine heart of gold. Genius. Jack of all trades, master of all. She would never have agreed, describing her as humble would be an understatement. No one can convince me that this was a “coward’s way”. No one can fathom the deeply rooted pain that permeated her soul into leaving her family behind. No one alive can know a pain that deep. You’re a woman of many, many eloquent words…they will forever resonate along with your stunning smile, contagious laugh, and perfect boobies. ❤
“You are a sum of the 5 people you surround yourself with the most.”
I will love you always and forever, Jen.